i don't know what to think. valentines day is nice i guess, but i can't help thinking that ppl really need excuses to celebrate nowadays. today morning i woke up as usual,hating it and going around with my usual uppity attitude. you know the one that is like i don't need valentines day its just another marketing gimmick and i wish people wouldn't make fools of themselves like that cynical attitude ,which i now think was kinda sad.i saw google's pic today and there's an old couple holding hands and a heart shaped balloon on it that's so so so pretty and it made me tgo all warm and tingly in my stomach and down to my fingertips.and there was no one at the gym today and there were these really cute heart balloons all over the place. while coming home i saw these couples holding hands and snuggling together on bikes and that was another warm feeling. it made me think of him. after a long time. you know the song from jab we met? its somewhat like that. i'm shahid and he's always there somehow. i'm always thinking about him, but today was different. it was like i really wanted him to be there.physically. just spending time together. and while i was having dinner i kept fantasizing about dancing with him. not dancing as in the tango or something, but something...slower. and softer. and talking about the craziest stuff. and just....i don't know. i'm kinda tired.i should just go to bed anyway. i've got loads to do tomorrow.