i'm so tired of being me.

its just hard, you know.i really really suck at programming,and i have my exam in about two weeks time.(actually 16 days time.)i'm extremely bored,and was going to a movie,but mom has a huge workload as is usual.i'm tired of getting my hopes up every single time she promises me we'll go out and then finds herself busy.i've decided now,i'm not going out with her.anywhere.at all.period.i'll stay and rot at home and get all mouldy but i'm not gonna go out with my parents.there's only so much i can take.

i've also decided i'm gonna study more.i don't wanna get first class again.i really want a distinction this time around.so that's it.its so dull though.i'll finish with del and ds this week and then i'll start programming.